OK HERES THE CONCEPT:::::::due to a rather unfortunate series of events. Both outside and separately from the pandemic, while at the same time all tangled together in snares. Some few close friends and other allies that stand still with me have known of these things I'm now risking making public. They have watched almost a year long build up to whats showing itself to be some of the hardest most difficult series of life forever changing dramatic & drastic challenges all coming for me at once.

Despite all the building momentum of an utterly overwhelming & over bearing impeding sense of drastic doom & despair. I continue to endeavor to press forwards and have seen myself push out what I consider now a true "finding of my own voice" position in time & space.

In the piles of unrelenting shit-storms non-stop hitting with mad repetitions. I am becoming more and more each day at a greater sense of peace than I have ever experienced with my artistic output; both sonically and in physical manifestations.

***I want to present an offering I hope to be unique and deeply personal. For now I am in an extremely drastic state of total dismay. I have crossed over into uncharted waters and life as I had grown accustom to it being has now almost become decimated to the fullest extent.

I would like to respond by not giving myself up into fear and hopelessness. Instead here is the first plan.

I have now currently at my disposal - 38pc of a variety of various blank cassettes at 60 minutes at length that I had been sitting on to use to be the ones with I would record my tracks to in various ways on my Tascam 424.

However starting today, 05292020. I am choosing to repurpose them in this specific way. I will now offer up as long as they last, a very personal and each individually crafted release. I openly here state, yes, I am very much in need of what many refer to as mutual aid.

I am facing the realities of risking all stigma and judgementalism.

However, here I am. I am a human with many rather serious mental illnesses that I have tried to keep hidden for many long years. I have been severely injured and have not improved at all in almost a year and am drastically growing worse. I currently am liquidating almost the entirety of my physical possessions. I am unable to be employed, earn an income or receive unemployment due to a variety of circumstances out of my control.

I am offering up to any so choosing to help a specially made mixture of a variety of recordings all made within the last six months. To this point I am offering to each individually, a mixture of tracks - some unreleased at all yet, some not digitally, only on cassette, some having been on a release that has been placed forwards in this insanity of this year 2020.

With this custom long ruminated on mixture of recordings all done in my bedroom in total isolation. I will custom make a hand made collage one of a kind for anyone who wants to help out in this way. I am asking a bit more than I normally would due to the overwhelming monetary challenges that are befalling me and will be staying by me for some time into the unknown future.

Each cassette purchased will be an unique piece of art specially made only once, never reproduced, 1000% individually authentic.


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"a voluntary reciprocal exchange of resources and services
for mutual benefit"